Zeke and Hartlee are sound asleep, and I'm fast on my way! I had NO CLUE what it was like to be a mom, and in reality I probably still don't because these aren't my own flesh and blood.
Last night Zeke woke up with a really bad coughing fit (he has a bad cold) and I got to spend 3:30 to 4:30 am sitting next to him. As I laid in bed trying to go back to sleep I was overwhelmed with gratefulness to the Lord. I had been afraid, as I went to sleep hours before, that I would not hear them if they woke up, or that if I did get up I would be grumpy and half asleep as I tended to them. However, I heard him right away and was wide awake. It is amazing the amount of compassion that is stirred up in my soul as I sit beside him in the wee hours of the morning. I had no thoughts of sleep I was missing, but was overwhelmed with compassion for him. I just wanted him to feel better! And, for anyone who has ever lived with me before, it is RARE for me to wake up and be compassionate. I usually need, oh, a few hours before I can be nice to anyone. So this truly was an act of the Lord. I was also afraid they would wake up before me and get themselves into trouble. But I woke up about 45 minutes before them and was able to get ready before they even woke up!
So, we have been playing all day and they are sound asleep. Tonight we are having a movie night! Yippee!
As I said before, I now can understand what Erin means when she tells me being a parent just never ends. I thought I got that before, but now I see. I haven't had time to do much for myself today...or really anything other than tend to their needs, which never end! Things are a mess and there is even throw up stains on the floor now, but we are all safe and having fun!
Well, they should sleep for another hour, so I am going to go have time with the Lord.