Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Dear Ben Harper, I love you. Love, Amy

I think I would totally hang out with Ben Harper if we were friends. I ate 6 Andes Mints tonight and I feel like I am going to throw up and I don't like that feeling. But, I am convinced today that Jesus loves me. I'm not entirely sure why, but He does and I'm going to celebrate that fact (but not by eating any more Andes Mints).

I think I want to run away to a monastery and be alone with Jesus and study scripture for the rest of my life. Or at least for the next month. Doesn't that sound delightful?

Which reminds me, off Gallup street by my house is a sign for a monastery. I'm going to go google that right now ...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Sunday, September 20, 2009


i am thankful for

a long bath with a good book
my new hair mask
my robe
a day filled with friends
turning the tv off and listening to good music
my laundry is d o n e

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

jesus loves me this i know.

the last 4 months have been a whirlwind and i'm not sure that life will ever settle down. but maybe i like that? maybe that's okay? maybe that's what i want? who knows.

what i do know is jesus loves me. or maybe i don't know this. maybe i need to tell myself over and over again every day. maybe i'll never understand until i get to heaven.

so i'm going to chose to know that jesus loves me.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i am thankful for...

solid grounds coffee shop
the bachelorette
free iced mocha

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Winter Song - Sara Bareilles & Ingrid Michaelson

this is my winter song to you
the storm is coming soon,
it rolls in from the sea

my voice a beacon in the night,
my words will be your light,
to carry you to me

is love alive? is love alive? is love

they say that things just cannot grow
beneath the winter snow,
or so i have been told

they say we're buried far,
just like a distant star,
i simply cannot hold

is love alive? is love alive? is love

this is my winter song
december never felt so wrong,
cause you're not where you belong
inside my arms

i still believe in summer days,
the seasons always change,
and life will find a way
i'll be your harvester of light,
and send it out tonight,
so we can start again

is love alive? is love alive? is love alive?

this my winter song,
december never felt so wrong,
cause you're not where you belong,
inside my arm

this is my winter song to you
the storm is coming soon,
it rolls in from the sea

my love a beacon in the night,
my words will be your light,
to carry you to me

is love alive?

Friday, June 05, 2009

I would give almost anything to be here right now...

Thursday, June 04, 2009

"It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by the dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions and spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who, at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly; so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory or defeat."


I want to be the man in the arena. I don't just want to have courage when situations come, I want to seek out situations that challenge me. I don't want to hold back, to wait for things to happen.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Weird dreams lately

I have had some crazy dreams lately. Here are some highlights...

1) Dreamt that I was marrying a friends husband. It was the night of the rehearsal dinner and I just found out we were getting married. The whole dream I was trying to figure out if it was appropriate to postpone the wedding because I hadn't planned any of it yet. I was stressed out because I hadn't picked a place, flowers, music, sent out invites, NOTHING and the wedding was the next day. Hahahah it was so stressful. And then I found out at the very end that it was my friends husband and I was trying to figure out if it was okay or not to marry him. So weird.

2) Last night I dreamed that I was having a baby. Only, I was in the hospital pushing and pushing and nothing was happening! The doctors were so perplexed, so they did an ultrasound to see what was happening and they were like "oh! you aren't pregnant, no wonder nothing is coming out of you!" and i was so disappointed!

There are others, but those two were the strangest.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Injuries Suck

So playing volleyball this week I (long story short) ended up with a severe sprain with ligament tearing. THAT is a good time, let me tell you. Now I'm walking around on crutches with a half cast that goes from my toes to my knee, which is also a good time. My back, shoulders and neck feel like they have been run over by a truck because of the crutches and my leg feels like it is going to fall off.

About 3:45 I woke up because my pain meds wore off and I cannot fall back asleep. That, is also a good time.

Just whining. Thanks for listening.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

This is why I do my job

"Sing to the Lord a new song;
sing to the Lord, all the earth.
Sing to the Lord, praise his name;
proclaim his salvation day after day.
Declare his glory among the nations,
his marvelous deeds among all peoples."
Psalm 96:1-3

"You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."
Acts 1:8

"The man and his wife were both naked and they felt no shame."
Genesis 2:24

We were made to feel no shame. I lived in shame for 22 years before Jesus completely changed my life.

Thursday, March 19, 2009


I am off work for the next 10 days and I am praying that the Lord does some amazing things. Will you pray with me?

-That I would have supernatural motivation to be diligent on support
-That the Lord would bring in support
-That I would have sweet time with the Lord each day

My heart longs to be done with support for so many reasons. Chiefly, I want to be working on campus. I want to spend my days walking into dorm rooms to talk to women about God. I want to meet with girls in the student union to talk about how Jesus is changing our lives. I want to sit alongside a student as she realizes, for the first time ever, that God loves her deeply. I want to go.

Here am I, send me. Please.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I had a one-hour phone appointment with my support coach today, during which i sat in my car and watched people come in and out of Tattered Cover. So many different kinds of people, it made focusing on my call difficult.

It was also very windy today, very. A grocery cart was laying on it's side near the entrance to the bookstore. In the hour I sat there, several people would right the cart, only to have it begin to roll around out of control as they, happy and unknowing, continue on their day. Each of them tried a different strategy to get the cart to stay upright, but few realized that standing it up meant it was going to roll around wildly, hitting cars and people. And those that did realize made only futile attempts to still it, never being successful.

One man, the first, picked it up and pushed it behind a bench in the middle of the walkway. Within seconds it started rolling, but he was already inside Tattered Cover and missed it. The next guy grabbed it as it rolled around and put one of the tires on the welcome mat. That worked until the next major gust of wind dislodged it, causing it to roll on towards it's next car-victim.

Over and over again people would try to fix the stray cart. Everyone thought they knew what was right, how to make it stop causing damage to itself and others. Yet no one took the time to read the store it was from (Bed, Bath and Beyond, right next door) and think to take it inside that building. Or, even less thought-intensive, it could have been laid back down, wheels up, so that it couldn't roll around.

I think in ministry I try to fix everyone's felt-problems. I tried to get their wheel's caught just enough on the mat to make them stop hurting themselves and others, but it's really just a band aide that makes me feel better and them left alone, again. If I only took the time to find out where they are from, where they belong, and what the real problem is, they could be restored.

If I only took the time to bring them to Jesus, instead of bringing them to myself or my books or my theology or my church or my psychology. Then they could be restored.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

oh that i would know him more

i have been working my way through a book titled "praying for dear life" which is just too cheesy of a title. but, it is a good book and it is changing the way i look at prayer and speaking with the father.

also, i have a cold and i'm pretty grumpy about it.

those are the (boring) highlights of my life right now. and here are some pictures from my life right now.